The beginning of my story is kind of odd to write about due to the fact that I have matured so much since then.  If only I knew at this time what I know now, then maybe I would be further along in my transition. 

As mentioned in a previous post, The first of my TG feelings came about in late 2000/early 2001.  I had developed a desire to wear tights.  I do not know exactly why my brain decided to pick this particular object in order to introduce me to my true self.  I suffer from a condition known as Spastic Diplegia.  This means that my legs are defective.  My left knee always sticks out, and I have extremely poor posture when I walk.  My feet also tend to go out to the side a little when standing.  It seems strange that someone with my issues would have an interest in this piece of clothing.

I see now that it was not really tights themselves I was into, but the intrinsic image surrounding this object.  My mind tends to associate tights with being astute and professional.  The reason why my brain associates these characteristics with this article of clothing is most likely due to the fact that I mainly came into contact with women in a school setting.  My teachers wore hosiery as part of their outfits on a constant basis  I had a strong liking for the dark opaque tights more than the others. 

I now realize the importance of these first TG thoughts.  What I really wanted was to be perceived as an intelligent sophisticated woman, but my mind was too immature at the time to give me the right message.  Tights will always have a special place in my mind.  I will always enjoy the "professional" look so to speak.  It was the thing that helped spark my journey to a better sense of self.